I Left Islam and My Family Knows Nothing!
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Islam! It is the fastest-growing religion in the world. Constantly, people are accepting Islam and vice versa. However, I left Islam; it has been months, if not years. But still, my family doesn’t have any clue about it. The reason behind I am pretending to be a Muslim is apparent. My fear for my life and my love for my family.
I am writing this article and thinking about what would happen if this article reached people from my country and my family. My father will surely disown me, and there is no doubt in it. However, I am unsure about my mother’s reaction as I said she is not a typical Asian Muslim woman. However, she is still a Muslim woman though. Today, I will share my story of leaving Islam and secretly living as a normal human being with no religion.
It was only 8–9 months back when I was a practicing Muslim. Who would pray five times and study Islam. Although I never believed that if anyone criticized Muhammad, he should die. However, I was constantly sugar-coating that with sentences like, ‘ I know my religion, and my religion doesn’t support this!’. Little did I know that the death penalty for criticizing Muhammad is one of the core things you need to support if you are a true Muslim or Mumin.
The main motive for writing this story is to let people like my previous version that they are only sugar-coating things and getting deceived by so-called mumins. If anyone wants to know if Islam is the right religion, they don’t need to study Islam for ten years. They only need to agree that many things written in Quran and ordered by Allah are incorrect in the real world. I could recall when I got angry and started to curse a late Bengali writer ‘Abhijeet Roy’ because he said, ‘If Muhammad was born in the 21st century. He would be equivalent to Hitler’. However, now I understand that what he said was a hundred and ten percent truth. I wouldn’t let a man roam freely! If he gets turned on by a 9-year-old girl.
Let’s not get distracted and stick to the point that I am now an atheist — constantly pretending to be a Muslim guy. A day of my life is not exceptional nor that simple after I decided I would not be a part of this dehumanizing religion.
I once searched ‘how to leave Islam’ to see if there are any formalities to leaving Islam. There was a quora thread regarding this, where a person said he left Islam ages ago, but his family still thinks he is a Muslim because he let them believe that. He also stated that he now goes for a long walk eventually when his parents tell him to go and pray jummah prayer. After reading his answer- I decided to do the same because I was also worried that what if I said to my parents or tried to do some ‘Islam leaving’ ritual, and then they disown me. Now I also do the exact same thing what that person did. Nowadays, when my mother tells me to pray- I sit on the prayer mat and wait for the time to pass so that I could tell that I have completed the prayer. I visit a domino’s pizza and sit there for 30–40 minutes, have some pizza, and then leave. I apply some attar in hand so that my mom thinks I have been praying in the mosque. However, my brother has noticed some changes in my behavior lately. However, that doesn’t change anything because my mom is not a radical Islamist.
I admitted the fact that Islam is not an accurate or perfect religion. Despite its scientific errors, it even has some brutal rules towards non-Muslims and women especially.
However, the story of becoming an atheist is somewhat interesting. I first realized that most Muslims nowadays are hypocrites when I saw thousands of comments defending ‘sex slavery. I was shocked how some people argued that sex slavery is not haram in Islam. Because very soon, there will be a war (Muslim vs. kafir)where many women will be windowed. Muslim fighters will give those women shelter, and those women will be their sex slaves. They were constantly saying that this was a noble job to do. That time I realized that No matter how much I prayed or stayed devoted to Allah, I would never be a true Muslim because I still don’t believe in killing innocents in the name of Muhammad.
Now I am just a human who wants to live peacefully. However, a question arises, “do I still support some part of Islam?”. The answer would be yes. I still support some good things about Islam. Like Zakat, sadqa, anti-rape rules, etc. I just stopped agreeing with every Islamic law and decided that I decide what I am going to do with my life and what is going to be my philosophy of life.
I got an offer to study at ‘The University of Greenwich’; I will soon move to London, where I will be able to breathe the air of freedom. I am hoping that I will be able to get rid of every sick thing I used to see people supporting.
